The Not-So-Perfect Way To Start A Thursday

The Not-So-Perfect Way To Start A Thursday

I know I shouldn’t have done it…

…but I did it.

Cue: shaky-worried-face & big fat sobs

This morning I looked up the survival stats of women with my grade and stage of breast cancer.

Yup.

You see, I discovered the existence of a website called Predict that enables cancer specialists and their patients to enter in specific data about their cancer, press a ‘Predict Survival’ button and gain insight into their expected rate of survival for five and ten years past diagnosis.

It was never going to end well, that Google session!

I don’t know what I really expected, and upon reflection, I’m not sure what baseline I would have been happy with. Nobody really wants to see that their chances of dying within ten years are less than ideal.

I knew all that, but the part of me that yearns desperately for good news, or even just for concrete answers at a time where there are so many unknowns, was too strong. I had to know, whatever the outcome.

Predict, a tool which uses a mathematical algorithm garnered from studies involving thousands of women’s experiences with Breast Cancer, works by comparing the histopathology details of a particular cancer with thousands of others similar. It asks things like:

  • size of tumour at diagnosis
  • grade of cancer (how aggressive it is)
  • how many lymph nodes were involved
  • whether the cancer expresses markers such as the estrogen & progesterone receptors, HER2 and K167

Once all this is entered, it spits out your probability of kicking the bucket in 5 and 10 years time.

* DEEP BREATH *

Here were my stats:

survival stats

Just over 70% chance of survival at five years, dropping to 40% at ten years.

Not really the best way to start an otherwise sunny, happy Thursday, huh!

After an emergency call to my beautiful sister, who managed to talk some sense that helped curtail my sobbing, I tried hard to listen to her wise words and see the bigger picture. (I seem to be doing a hell of a lot of ‘bigger picture seeking’ these days!)

For starters, these statistics are at least ten years old, and are based on the stats of all sorts of women, using no further details than age and the pathology results of their cancer at diagnosis. Predict can only ever be a general guide to possible outcomes and cannot reflect an individual’s specific case.

I have to keep telling myself I am young and strong. Prior to diagnosis I was fit and pretty healthy. I have a lot in reserve to help my treatment succeed.

And treatment-wise, I am in great hands. My team of doctors is world-class and the drugs I am receiving as a part of the KAITLIN Clinical Trial include some brand spanking new therapies that are designed to target my cancer specifically.

This is why I’m so passionate about helping to fund cancer research, because without it the odds would be stacked even further against me. Breakthroughs in cancer diagnosis and treatment are made all the time through research, and it is the new, more targeted therapies that are in trial now that give me a surge of real hope.

So, I just have one more little thing I want to say…

Can I ask each of you a little favour?

Would you relinquish one or two morning coffees this week, and instead throw the coins at cancer research? My friends are fundraising for Breast Cancer research through the Mothers’ Day Classic this year by completing a run and asking their friends and family for sponsorship. Jay and I and our children have signed up to walk it and I would be so pleased to translate that into some tangible support for the National Breast Cancer Foundation. If you would like to read more into why funding research is important, you can do so here.

Click here or below to donate to our Mothers’ Day Classic Team:

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Thank you so much (in advance) from the fullest part of my heart! Now get out there and enjoy that sunshine!

Kate x

7 thoughts on “The Not-So-Perfect Way To Start A Thursday

  1. Very sobering Kate and again thanks for sharing the details. Keep focusing on the best way to keep strong and healthy with as best possible possible thoughts during these trying and concerning times. The mind may go a long way to a better healing. LFM

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  2. Dah! The Internet can be a scary and wonderful place.. Eg: scary = “predict” (how does something like that exist??!!) Wonderful = this blog post
    Glad you’ve turned your Thursday around in such a positive way.
    I’m enlisting Janey and I to the 5km… Such an awesome cause that she can’t say no! Keep writing please 🙂

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  3. Oh Kate. I just read about your day. You poor thing. The internet search! Why do we do it?! Those tests are so absolute in our heads but then we come back to reality in a day or two. Your doctor would not be happy you looking this up. Tap on the hand! Remember you are not a statistic, you are an individual with a health plan & lots of support. After my dad died and mum was diagnosed with Alzheimer’s shortly afterward, I used to look up the “stages” of Alzheimer’s on the internet. Apparently there are 7. Mum’s symptoms ticked off as the last 2 stages but I know she is fit and strong and has the will of a bull, so I don’t pay attention too much. Stress hormones don’t help. Mindfulness meditation does however help greatly. If you ever need CD’s or guided meditations – even just 10 mins. I can email one to you. Once a day really helps. xx

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